I am embarrassed and ashamed. This is the first time I ve done this as an adult. I m a 63 year old woman. I angered my husband over something I said. I started punching myself in the head whilst yelling stupid over and over with each punch. I have a nasty lump, but I m more afraid of what I ve done. I m in therapy for depression, anxiety, AADD, bipolar with medications. As I said, I ve never done this before as an adult. I did it sometimes as an abused child.